Musing when my Brain is at Rest

 

Love yourself.

first

Accept yourself

all of you

even the bits of you that

society does not accept

that you don't want to 

accept 

as you

especially love those bits - be honest about them, 

yes, there they are

those are the bits that cannot be canned

contained

made to obey

conform

some of those bits might be smoothed into the character, essence of you - honed by time and wisdom

other bits are rough,   still, can't seem to...

don't hide those bits, they are you, they may mellow, 

but they will do that in their own time

when they're ready

(if they ever will be)

let them be, 

allow them to be

accept that you are not even close to perfection

you will have greater tolerance of other's rough bits when you do

love yourself now

because no one will do it for you, not all the time

we are all strangers to eachother

our known bits only form wholes 

because of the stories 

that people use to glue the bits together 

so you are loved, in part.

maybe you only love yourself in part...the brain-dominated-you

not you, inner-you

listen to yourself

you are not your brain

that is not the you of YOU

your brain is a tool to channel things

look beyond your thoughts, open the curtain behind them

you will find yourself sitting

calmly

you will note the calm

because it will surprise you

that you are not this rollercoaster of emotion and reaction and response and endless thought, self-critique, self-hatred, judgement, fear, anxiety

that is your brain, not you
observe it

thinking

look down on it and observe it doing what it does

can you? 

you can

you will then understand that you are separate from it

I think therefore I am

is enlightenment thinking, 

a time where thinking on one's own was cherished as a new right

 eras since have passed into new ones, yet we still prize thinking, 

we think too much now

for we think that is enlightened
we think that is who we are

strange, 

even you are strange to yourself...

...to find out that you have been there all along

while your brain pretended it was you

and you understand now that the rough bits are really strange bits from the deep down 'you' that your 'brain-you' doesn't know what to do with

so they become transformed by the part of your

public, socialized, brain-you

into an awkwardness, an incomplete manifestation...

because of your brain's resistance, society's resistance
they feel rough, unnacceptable, 

and you can't get rid of them
 

for they are you, 


look at them apart from your brain's haze of interpretation

look at 

you

you behind your brain you

you are beautiful
and those bits that are misinterpreted are there, in beautiful form
spend time with that real inner self beyond the brain

let yourself out

for a walk around the block
so to speak

try that newly discovered self out

and listen to it


it takes practice

now love you

all of yous : inner-you and brain-you
even if there are rough patches

because the brain-you is a hard habit to break

you will find yourself thinking worrying fretting judging

like you used to

relax

observe your brain being busy with itself

don't get involved

love your lovely you -  listen to you

shh
it is in a different language

listen
 

take your 'you self' out for a walk...
your brain can just follow behind

for once